M u s i n g s
 Where would you have me go?
What would you have me do? What would you have me say? I spoke these words aloud as I drove down the backroad on my way to teach a Yoga lesson this morning. Where would you have me go? What would you have me do? What would you have me say? As I repeated this chant again and again I started to connect with it, like a rope tethered to my Spirit Heart and felt the pulse of the words within me. They anchored and I asked… Where would you have me go? What would you have me do? What would you have me say? And I let go… And after the lesson, heading back to my car, where was my dog… He was just here, he is always here… I stepped out of my car and went to look and there, this red headed boy in a red t-shirt and blue shorts standing there saying something about something I could really barely understand… Something about "Tambo," the Trampoline that was behind him?? Was he asking me to trampoline? Follow me, he said… And so when you have asked the Universe to show you where to go and what to do and a little boy arrives in his full power asking you to please follow, you hardly hesitate at all, you just go. And so we did, over a hand made wooden bridge to a nearby island… paths were there for us to walk and a beautiful yurt with fairy lights that would light up and we looked inside for “Tambo” but noooo… And around the side of the cottage on the point, oh and he had me run, run like a child over that bridge and along that path and my pup running beside us… Enchanting… And of course people came out and I said hello and the boy ran inside and told me he had arrived with “the girl with the blue pants.” That was me, indigo yoga pants and i actually wore my running shoes that morning, which was perfect. Perfect for running across bridges and stopping to peer into yurts on new islands with a red headed boy, no more than 5 years old, with his red shirt. And my blue pants. It was perfect. The hilarious thing was staying Open while explaining to the ‘Adults’ who I was, how I got here … Yes, I told one of them about the prayer, the chant… Where would you have me go? What would you have me do? What would you have me say? “This is what I asked today, in my Prayer. And so when a child shows up and says you are going, you listen.” And the rest of the day was much like this. Free passes to a Yoga festival, and synchronistic events. Especially meeting the mermaid like girl on the dock with her tattoo written in Italian saying ‘don’t eat my butterflies.’ “What does it mean,” I said? She said it means, like don’t destroy my excitement, my joie de vivre, the things that make me feel alive. And we sat on the dock, having had just met and yet feeling perfectly in the pocket and perfectly met. THANK YOU, SPIRIT. p.s. The adults told me that "Tambo" was how the young boy pronounced "Campbell," one of the sons who cottaged there. My teacher's words are those I share with my students. Those words handed to me deliberately, I now offer them. And when received, I see the electric glint in their Eye. Breasts like cresting waves Despite attempts to manicure and shave dirt under my nails and stray hairs reveal my Wildness. As within, so without. And so I look to my Environment to Heal and Soothe as I look inwards to Heal and Soothe the External. The mirror ... Sun-diamonds glimmer on a Lake. I am Awake. I now have the feeling in my Solar Plexus of what it is to Be. I feel the urge, almost like a purge, to Create. This voice, not mine, never was, comes through and I am Happy, Blissed, to be Home. What words will you speak through me dear Voice. Finally in Letting Go, I find you. In surrendering, I fill. Been waiting for you, yet here you are - have been here all along. I am reminded of 'my' True Nature. No 'I', just Being. A vessel for Spirit, a Presence within. Letting go, I have heard the Call. Now I am present again to Manifest to hold dear Angelic Breath, Guidance. Oh to Listen! I'm Free. |
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