Saturday morning I was feeling out what to do with my day - do I go to Thai Boxing or to the vintage flea market? I checked in with my body and she said she needed Yoga to restore my prana (energy) and I felt the clothing sale was something to really check out.
So I dressed myself in my long, tall 70’s inspired light denim jeans and my maroon Ganesha tee and walked to the market. There, I spotted a fabulous gold dress and peeking through the rack I saw my friend, a gal who’d modelled for my eco-fashion line many years before, there as a vendor, the vendor of this gold dress in fact.
We began to talk and she told me she was breaking up with her boyfriend and her heart was breaking. She also told me she recently saw my sister who she was talking about the breakup to and my sister asked her if she had ever written a list with all the qualities of a partner was were simply ‘musts’ - deal breakers if they weren’t present in someone she met. This is how both my sister and her husband of 7 years (who are deeply in Love and Alignment) found each other: through the quantum power of lists. They both had lists. And they both met each other’s lists.
My friend told me how one of the things she is learning is to Love herself enough to ask for her needs to be met. She works on self Love by affirming to herself “I love you, I love you, I love you…” repeating this mantra inwards to herself even and perhaps especially when her self-esteem wavers and she needs to stabilize. She also spoke to how she does this in the mirror - one of the most Powerful and personally revolutionary practices I have ever done. She said to me “You know how people look at the person they Love with those eyes that say that they Love the other person, like deeply?” “Yes,” I said. “Well, imagine if we looked at ourselves that way.” Yep, totally, this is some next level mirror work for sure. I mean I have heard and read the words “Fall in Love with yourself" but imagine actually gazing at yourself like you are completely in Love with yourself. I am going to try it and work on it. This is going to be the next level of my Self-Love project.
My friend spoke about being alone and said something about hoping she meets someone and if not she’ll just get a bunch of animals (one’s that have one eye, and others with missing legs) and take care of them. Reflecting on her energy field I kind of sensed that there would be someone in her Life and that perhaps she’d look after some animals in addition to having a meaningful relationship with a human being. I then remembered this Empowering moment that I had when I made the decision to move to Toronto to go to Psychotherapy school in the next three days I didn't know where I was going to live. But when I was speaking with my Mom I had this shift where I realized that wherever I went, I would be there and that would be significant to the people around me, like my neighbours and the neighbourhood. It was a moment of taking my Power back. I said to my friend “You know, maybe it is not about you finding someone but maybe it is about you being Free so that someone can experience you and learn from you.” And that resonated with her. And she could see her specialness and her Power. And she said “Oh wow. Maybe this is not about me waiting for someone. Maybe this is about me coming into someone else’s Life to share my Light and Love.”
And with that she gifted me a pair of pink lacy knickers and said “Think of me when you wear them.” “I will,” I said. We gave each other a big hug and I strolled out of the market, knickers in hand, feeling complete. And I heard the song and words of Bob Marley on the Way Home: “Emancipate yourself from mental slavery. None but ourselves can free our mind… Redemption Song.”
When I came home I had centered into my Yoga practice. I think I may it may simply have been a continuation of my flea market adventure - transmuting energy as we flow.
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